I am a bit tired of watching movies in the evening. I used to love watching movies. I don’t know how many hours, days, even weeks, that I’ve spent in front of the TV. But when I look at it from a larger scheme I no longer think that my everyday life is as well planned as I’ve always thought: I get up in the morning and work until it is literally dark outside. Or, in the summertime, at least until most people have had their dinner. After that I go home, which takes about one hour, so the time we’ll be at least eight o’clock for my dinner. If I do watch a movie after that, I will have spent the whole day doing things that don’t actually supply me with any valuable memories.
Sometimes I play poker online, which is more fun than watching movies. But I don’t really like to play poker IRL, and what I lack the most in my life is the social part. So that is no real solution either. Sometimes I think about doing radical things, such as moving away from the country, quit my job and go look for fortune somewhere else. There are so many things that I could do, yet I fear that none of them will ever be done. I would like to travel more, and see Scotland, Egypt, New York, the Indian countryside, the quiet desert and the jungle. There are so many things that I could do, but I know that I won’t have the courage to get my act together. And the worse thing is that all of my friends seem to feel the same about their lives.
No, I think that the solution to the problem lies in the small means: To watch less movies. To try to learn more while at work. To try to connect to more people, and get influenced by them. Maybe the best deal would be if I tried to start to like IRL poker, and then I would meet new people that way…
In that case I would want to do it abroad. I reckon I should just head to Las Vegas and see how that works out! But then again, maybe I would just lose my money on the casinos, and then I’d be back where I started.